More empty promises about making this blog better

I have been reading back through some former posts as I try to get back into doing this thing in a serious way and I have noticed some bad habits. I am really all over the place with essentially no focus or follow up. Apparently a year ago I made a big deal about starting a long form paper on the subject of Schopenhauer's essay On Suicide, which to the best of my memory I never wrote a single word of... I do remember reading the essay though... so that is a step I suppose... but yeah I need to develop a structure for continuing work and organization... but at the same time maybe I need to stick with what I am doing now at least until I have proven myself of sticking with even that much easier thing, before trying to move on to more complicated commitments. So even though I am well aware no one else is looking at this I want to apologize to anyone who may one day see all of this for its complete lack of organization or follow up... Part of me feels like it would be best if no one saw this as it might come across as a crazy person's scribbling... but I also know that there is value here even if I will eventually have to go back through it all and dig it out at some point. I have tried to just do this and keep it all on my computer but I never seemed able to stick with it, not that I have proven I can stick with it doing it here either, but maybe making it theoretically public will give me a sense of responsibility to make it work...