It's not my fault I swear

Hello Loyal Readers,

I know I promised you all daily posts and swore that no matter what I would put something up here everyday even if it was just some weak rambling about how I was supposed to put something up everyday and didn't have anything good to post so I was just going to ramble about how I was supposed to put something up everyday but since I didn't have anything good to post I was just posting this ramble about... Ok so obviously you noticed that there was this glaring hole in the timeline from last tuesdayish until this morning and I know from all the angry phone calls and nasty comments left on the blog that you were all going through nasty withdrawl from lack of my brilliance... but the site went down in this super annoying way that it wouldn't let me write any text in the new post window... Problem fixed! I am back! (pause for applause) Ok what is my fault is that as much as I kept telling myself that I should just write a shadow set of posts to be ready to bomb the site when it came back online, I did not do that...  This of course proves the importance of the blog to my process because for years I could have been writing such material and not posting it on the internet but I was not doing it so thats why I got myself this rocking blog and am making myself post something everyday as I have so laboriously described so many times instead of actually posting things... but now I have proven to myself and the world that the system works, or at least is necessary to whateve small amount of success it has brought as as soon as the sight went down I ceased to produce... Also I have decided to start pretending that I have an audience clamouring for my thoughts... Perhaps I will have to actually go out and get said audience eventually as the self delusion wears increasingly thin but in order for the delusion lose its effect I need to embrace it and let the effect wash over me so as to build up a resistance, you will never be completely free of the hold as long as you never let it grab on so that you can break it... like heroin...